feeling 1,000 years in an old folks home
this is what growing old feels like.
20 years and past my prime
what will become of me?
25 years and an alcoholic
30 years and finding Jesus—
we used to be each other’s religions.
I prayed to you every night/
you worshipped me
until you began to question
everything you had been taught to believe
about me and I—
I was left head bent,
repeating the same words
every night before bed.
caseyyy said: I'm going to Las Vegas for my 21st birthday in the dead of summer!! What makeup should I pack? What else should I pack? (don't be afraid to suggest the outlandish and practical)
Ooooh GIRL, I got you.
For day, I’d keep it simple:
-BB cream with SPF (I love the Maybelline Dream Fresh or the Garnier version…apply these with a foundation brush)
-A Waterproof Mascara
-An Undereye Brightener for hangovers
-Lip Balm with SPF
For NIGHT, go crazy! I’m going for some versatile but classic night looks: smoky eyes with neutral lip, bright lips with neutral eye, all while keeping in mind you probably want to bring a small makeup bag:
-Neutral Pinkish Lippie (I like MAC’s Creme Cup)..for some reason, nude pinkish is like, the prerequisite for girls in bandage dresses. I respect this tradition.
-A Smoky Eye Palette : I usually bring one eyeshadow palette on vacation. For Cheap: CoverGirl or Wet’n’Wild or ELF makes great ones, but look for something that has a neutral shadow as well in case you want to keep your eye look simple for a night.
-A Metallic eyeshadow: for a quick pop on the inner corner or a super quick “i’m too drunk from pregaming to handle this.”
-Something with glitter (try NYX glitter liner) it is VEGAS and it is your BIRTHDAY. A simple glitter eyeliner just adds a slight bit of oomph without being too “I’m 15 and I think glitter is still very important.” I love a silver or gold on the inner corner.
-Fake Lashes: again it is VEGAS, so go crazy if you don’t have glasses
-Bronzer and a good fluffy brush. Keep in mind this looks mad sexy when dusted lightly on the chest and on the cheekbones. Just remember to blend or else it looks like dirt.
-A good eyeliner that couldn’t get off even if you wanted it to. Try MAC gel eyeliner, Kat Von D tattoo liner, or Rimmel Scandaleyes
-NARS Super Orgasm Blush: the sexiest blush in the world. Hands down. Totally worth the 30 bucks because my first one lasted me for 2 years.
-Foundation…you can use the BB cream but if there is ANY reason to wear nice foundation, it’s when you’re gonna be in a shit ton of pictures.
-Eyebrow shit: if you gonna have heavily madeup eyes, make sure you don’t forget the brows
-Setting Spray. Cuz you gonna sweat. And dance. And this will lock you in.
Don’t forget: good sunscreen, strong deodorant, Advil, at least 5 hair ties, loud jewelry and heavy duty makeup remover. Have fun, be safe, and go wild.
AHHHHH the frenemy answered me!!!!!!!! and I knew she would provide the best answer. freaking out.
A summer night spent on Skype.
We spoke in country accented dialect. His
midwestern, mine a bit of everywhere.
A sweet-tea southerner’s summer.
Freedom rang with 1 am
whiskey licked phone calls
talking until he did something, he’d be
too scared to say in the morning.
I could have sucked that marlboro smoke
out of his political discourse; felt his smirk
underneath my bed sheets. The only distance
felt between us was a computer screen.
The what-if’s never let me apologize
for that following sophomoric semester.
us from exploring a potential mistake.
But that sweet front porch summer
in me wishes
you were a drunk phone call away.
April and Summer-like,
trying to remember how loneliness feels like
This is my current LIPS submission although I hate the Our Bodies metaphor. Tell me what you think!!!
was salted caramel.
Reigned of American Spirit.
Your finest bottle of six-dollar wine
I could have drank for hours.
I lost myself there.
was ripened fruit-
juicy peaches with the bruises hidden
underneath the pink, plump skin,
enjoying every last bite,nibbling me down to my core.
were your favorite song.
You know, the one that you grew sick of
it came up months after.